Thursday, March 13, 2008

am I nuts? Journal

JOurnal Am I nuts?



MUST READ 200 PAGES AND WRITE 2 REVIEWS BY FRIDAY!
MUST WRITE PART 8 OF MY RADIO PLAY BEFORE 11:30 TONIGHT
AM i NUTS?
YUP
NOW...OFF TO THE LOONEY BIN OF MY MIND AND THE KEYS OF THE KEYBOARD. I DON’T KNOW IF I WILL RETURN, I MAY SPONTANEOULSY COMBUST.
WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LONG NIGHT PLANNED

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Journal

Thursday, March 06, 2008


JOURNAL
Current mood: good
Category: really, I am! Writing and Poetry

I should be writing a review right now for ForeWord Magazine of a book called, Swami Kriyananda: As We Have Known Him. I'm not as you can all see. I haven't blogged in awhile and I wasn't planning on blogging, but I have a lot on my mind. If you have been following my life for the last couple of months you know that I have been sick since after Thanksgiving in one aspect or another. Everything finally came to a head about 2-3 weeks ago. I felt so sick that I went to the emergency room. After I explained to the nurse that my normal temp is around 95-96 and that 100 degrees is very high for me and that I couldn't breathe and I felt like my head was going to pop off my shoulders, she relented and actually listened to me. They placed me in a kind of waiting room, gowned me and let me sit up in a hospital bed so I could breathe easier. They gave me oxygen, an IV, some medication to help me with nausea and a battery of tests. My ailments consisted of the following: A lung infection, the flu, a sinus infection, ear infection, bronchitis and a blood sugar level of 290. Fast forward, the Doctor wrote me an excuse for bed rest for a week (I maybe stayed in bed for 3 days) The first two nights I was so feverish, that I had freaky dreams while awake and I had to sleep sitting up to freaking breathe. Funny how we take certain things like breathing for granted. Even after a week off, I still felt like crap. Fast forward again. I did a follow up with my Doc about my blood sugar and son of a bitch, I have type 2 diabetes. My mother is a diabetic, my dad is a diabetic and holy shit, so am I at the ripe old age of 40. So I started taking medication in the morning to lower my blood sugar and made a radical change in my diet and lifestyle.
Here is the good part. I am dropping weight big time. I have gone from 217 pounds at Christmas down to 190 pounds. I test my blood sugar twice a day and I have it down to a manageable level, unless I cheat and eat too many slices of pizza. I now take my meds in the evening with my meal because they were making me hungry and miserable all day long. I told my Doctor and nurse one afternoon that I was so hungry that if a cow walked by me at that moment that I would tear off a hunk with my teeth. And you should have seen me trying to poke my finger for the first time for my one-step blood sugar meter. I could not prick my finger; I have this aversion to needles, especially needles used to self-inflict pain. I could not do it. My wife volunteered to cause me some pain, but I told her, no thank you, I'll figure it out on my own. I did it by fooling myself to push the button that releases the cartridge that shoots the needle through the skin. Now, it is a piece of cake.
The irony is that I have another sinus infection with a cold right now, but, I feel great. I feel better about myself, life and everything else than I have felt in 2-3 years.
On the literary front: My short play (I believe it is the play Grounded) has been published in the debut issue of The Read Herring Literary Journal. It is available for purchase at Lulu, download or print on demand. I finally figured out how to finish my play Fissure, I have a new poem going up and I have been working on my novel and my Teppes script every day. I am going to start a blog journal for my novel very soon and I have some short stories about ready to go. My reviewing has increased and I have made more money freelancing in 2007 than 2006. I will make more this year.
My play Zero People will be performed sometime in April or May. I cannot wait. My graphic novel project, Risen looks like it might be taking off. I am working away in my new office, although I still don't have it organized the way I want it and my library is spread out all over the place. I'm annoyed by this, but only slightly. I really think that my blood sugar level has been high for a long time and that is why I have been so depressed and tired. I feel like a brand new man with more energy and drive than I have had in a long time. My keyboard isn't working right and that is annoying me as well, but again only slightly. Life is good.

L